I went running this morning in my neighborhood and let me tell you, it felt good! I'm doing the couch to 5K program and week 1, day 1 is checked off! Woo hoo! Color Run here I come!
When you go running, it gives you some time to think. I spent a while praying to God and begging him to use my life for His glory. It pains me to think that I could waste even one moment that I could be helping others or telling people about Christ. Cancer sure puts things in perspective.
As always though, my mind wandered to the baby topic. It's literally on my mind and heart all the time. When I was a young girl somehow this dream got planted in my heart. I wanted to grow up, go to college (It was UGA at the time), marry my handsome prince and have LOTS of babies. While that dream has shifted somewhat over the years, the basic principle was the same. Marriage and babies was my fairy tale.
As I grew up and went to high school and college I had my first defeat. I wasn't as pretty or popular as other girls and I didn't have any boyfriends. I had a few guys interested in me, but I didn't have a real boyfriend until I was in my twenties. I went through some dark times and God had to remind me that getting married was not my purpose in life. I was meant to serve Him first and foremost. Once I let go of that, I found David and I got to experience marraige and all the challenges and blessings that come with it.
So.....babies....yeah that was next. Well, cancer stepped in. I stress all the time about how long I have to wait and how I wish I could just fast forward two years and get on with things.
So as I was running I was doubly struck with this urgency to serve my God and this stress about having children and I realized something pretty powerful.
Yes, I want my fairy tale ending.
But you know what? I want Jesus more.
I want Jesus more because He is better than any fairy tale. He is better than any dream house. He is better than any spouse or earthly fame. Jesus is better. He DIED on a cross for me and ROSE from the dead. He offers ETERNAL life and FREEDOM from sin! He is better.
If nothing else is certain in your life, trust this.