Well... I had hoped that this post would contain very different news.
I would love to tell you that my PET scan was clean and I'm in remission, but unfortuantely it was not.
The scan showed some active tumors in my neck and chest.
There is a possibility that these active spots are simply granulomas or inflammation left over from the chemo.
If this is the case, then we will simply wait longer and they will dissipate on their own.
There is a possibility that these active spots are leftover Hodgkins Disease making the treatments I've undergone for the past 6 months not completely effective.
If this is the case, then we are facing some pretty intense, life-altering treatments including a different type of chemo and a stem cell transplant.
Before any action is taken, I will undergo a biopsy on Monday to determine what the spots are. I will receive the answer Thursday at a doctor's appointment.
This news was not expected and has caused us to cling tighter to our God. My head has been spinning, but through much prayer, time with family, and encouraging words from others, I feel there is a third possibility.
God is capable of raising people from the dead, walking on water, and healing disease. He is capable of making blind men see and lame men walk. All it takes is faith.
I stand in faith and believe that God can heal me. God can take away these "active spots" whatever they are before I go to the biopsy on Monday. It is my prayer that they will do the sonogram to find the spots to biopsy and they will be completely gone! He has confirmed to me over and over again that He will never leave me or forsake me. He will rescue me and heal me. And while I don't know what his perfect plan for my life is, I know that prayer is important.
I realize that God may choose not to do this. His ways are higher than mine. However, he says in His word to "seek and we will find. Knock and the door will be open." In the parable of the persistent widow, God says, "will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night?"
I am asking you to cry out day and night on my behalf. When the woman reached out and touched Jesus robe, he told her "daughter your faith has healed you." Please stand with me in faith that God can heal me.
Please take the next few days to persistently pray for my healing. Pray that my faith may increase. Pray that these spots would be gone on Monday. Pray that only He will get the glory for my life. Pray that God would hear our cries and grant me mercy and a life of ministry and family with my husband.
I believe that there is power in the prayers of the saints. Trust the Lord with me to heal my body completely in the name of Jesus so that only He can get credit.
Please share this post with as many people as you can and begin praying....
God is good all the time and He is still on the throne no matter what the outcome. I thank you in advance for being persistent with me.